Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Adoptive Mom

God's original plan for my kids was not what it is currently. God's original plan doesn't involve sinful, selfish and depraved people. It involves not eating from a tree and being fruitful and multiplying for His glory, to worship and fellowship with Him. My precious children are here with me because of the self-gratifying nature of this sinful people. And I rejoice because someone else's failures became my reward. I get to be their mom. I get to kiss their hurts, tuck them in, hear them sing and raise them for the glory of his Creator. But I ache. I am fallible. I am faced with the fact that I cannot make it all better all the time. I cannot be Jesus. I can show Jesus, love Jesus and walk within the boundaries of His word. But I cannot take away all the hurt that my children may feel. I can ask the Lord to protect them from the pain and I can teach my children to lean on Him to heal their wounds. That is my job. That is my calling--raising my kids for His glory and His alone. The Lord is faithful to restore what the locusts have stolen. He is Jehovah-Jireh (The Lord will Provide). He is Jehovah-Rophe (The Lord Who Heals). He is Jehovah-M'Kaddesh (The Lord Who Sanctifies). And in the midst of it all He is Jehovah-Shammah (The Lord is There).
Peace be with you all tonight.


The Barreness said...

Thank you for this post. I had a week like this last week, that I was frustrated that I couldn't "fix my kids" but rejoicing in the fact that I -know- the One who can. Such a rough part of being an adoptive mom, the feelings of needing to be the fixer, but having children who are beyond what we can "fix." Thank you for posting this.


Anonymous said...

Sometimes, It is hard to remember Jehovah Shammah, especially when it
hurts so much and your heart is breaking
in prayer, tears and hanging on to
faith. But then deep within you hear
the voice of Jehovah-Jireh saying "
peace, be still and no that I am God"